Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Sunday, July 4, 2010

seemingly better :)

well happy 4th everyone!

things with nate and i seem to be better. we havn't had a single disagreement all day. not even about his brother. i went through the bills today :( we owe so much...seems like there is no end. I've applied for a few more jobs. But with it being the 4th of july weekend, i don't think i'll here much of anything till around Tuesday or after. The worst that can happen is me gettin offered a better job with more pay or gettin 2 part times... so what the heck. We have a lot of bills to get caught up on and i don't think starting a new life in a different place is such a good idea right now.  ive also applied for help like food stamps, cash assistance, medicaid...so im gunna keep my finger crossed. Well that's all for now. ill post more later :)

Saturday, July 3, 2010

lost

I tried to get him to talk to me about the situation with his brother, I think it may have only blew up in my face. I really think I'm startin to loose my husband. This is the most out of control I've felt in our marriage. I just wish there was a way for me to get everything back. Everything right... But it is startin to seem like those days are way out of reach. I just don't understand why. I know he loves me and he knows I love him. But that seems like it is all that is there now.

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