Opinionated, are we?

Hey everyone. How have you all been? I'm sure you have been wondering why I havn't posted in forever!!! haha, well I've been pretty buzy and just avoiding posting a new blog since there is sooo much to say!

First I want to thank all of you who prayed for us when we went to court last week...It must have worked because, guess what??? We were granted 2 nights a week, un-supervised visits, in our home!!!! So we spent Thursday, Friday, and Saturday with Tuck here at home...but had to have him back to my mothers Saturday night...Donavan got the same (Tucker's biological father) which makes me happy (specially since we are gettin along again and working on our friendship)...We get him next August 2nd through the 4th....then if everything goes right & we please SRS....we will move to 5 day visits... and we would be able to have him again on August 16th through the 21st....and then twice more before we have to go to court again.

They would like Donavan and I to go to domestic court and get our 'visitation agreement' between the 2 of us on paper and in front of a judge...so before the case can be dismissed September 24th, we have to get that completed....Donavan and I have decided to split the costs of it...

Avon is going alright. I am going to try a few new things such as putting lead boxes around town so if anyone wants info about Avon or would like to sign up then they can write down their info and I can call them....The only thing I am worried about is that I have $100 order to pay for by Monday, other wise I can't put in my next order for my customers, which is a very good one...

We are starting to get the bills rolling in...We have to send our 1st mortgage payment Friday....it's crazy to think it's already been almost a month now that we have 'owned' our home...

My mother is seriously pissed off at this whole situation...Usually when we go to court she has a letter typed up that she 'passes' out to the attorneys and the judge and a few other 'important' people that sit in there, then keeps one for herself to read aloud to the court. It's usually filled with a bunch of immature crap and a way to get her way in court pretty much...well she's is upset cuz this time they didn't even have a hearing...Basically all we did was Donavan, his attorney, myself and my attorney and our srs case worker all went into a little room, discussed the agreement Donavan and I had set up....and that was basically it. We have decided that since we are splitting our time 100% with Tucker that we will have no child support, so that will be cancelled soon and we no longer have to pay mom anymore (sept maybe $100 for August cuz she cried about it) So she is also pissed that she won't be getting child support every month to make the payment on her new mini van...that she really don't need... But yea...I had to giggle. She didn't get to stand up in front of the judge and fill everyone's head with a bunch of junk and be able to get her way in screwing all of us over.... it was nice!!! And amazing how this time, with her not being able to say anything, things went totally different than normal! It was great!

But Nathan is in bed and I really need to do the same...so I will be back some time soon to check comments and write some more about what is going on.

I hope everything is going just as well for everyone else :D

Hey everyone. How are you all doing? I'm alright for the most part...

This next week is going to be pretty hard. Our whole check is gone due to child support & bills...Luckily we have enough groceries left over that we will be able to eat...but there aint really any meals...

Avon is going alright, I need more customers...really bad. I have to pay $100 for my first campaign (due to just ordering promotional and personal items) and it looks like we may have to pay for the 2nd campaign out of our pocket too. I won't know yet of course till next Friday when I deliver the products to my customers and get their payments.

Luckily my District Manager has been in Philly all week at training sessions and what not. She will be back on Monday and we will be sitting down and doing some different things to figure out how to build my buisiness & maybe (hopefully) gain more customers. And my avon site is finally up and running right... (so you should deffinatly check it out & possibly make an order!!!)

I havn't even done anything with my crafts lately...I've really been slacking on so much...including the nursery...My mother in law came over today and we shampoo'd the carpet in there, but that's pretty much it. I am wanting to get the wall paper off the walls tonight, so maybe I can start painting soon...

My schooling is going well...I spoke with my academic advisor and let him know everything that was going on with my internet and whatnot....He gave me a weeks extension on 2 of my courses, and 1 was still due (yesterday) at the same time. Luckily I passed the whole course with a B. He said the only reason he gave me the opportunity was because he understood everything I was going through and being that my internet was a HUGE problem with my schooling & the fact that I have great grades (straight A's with that 1 B)....he knew I was trying really hard. I was totally stoked becuase it's in the school handbook that they won't even consider any extensions with any courses....I didn't even ask...He just gave it to me. I was so relived. The only problem is now that I am stuck in my Pre-Algebra course (I am doing a High School Diploma Program through Kaplan University in Florida)....I am so worried becuase it is so advanced my husband (who is a genious in math) can't even help me anymore....

We have court next week over Tucker, I'm so nervous & stressed over it... I honestly don't know what to expect...between court and avon....I'm stressed to the max over everything. Ugh....I just want next week to be over with so I can be done with this step in life and get on with the next one...

So tonight is pretty lame. Nate has been gettin up around 3 in the morning for 2 days straight, gettin 12 hour days, and now has to do it all again tomorrow...so he's already in bed. We've barley hung out today. I hate these long days...and of course in the concrete business it's always during the summer so when the weather is actually nice, we don't get to do anything together without him being totally pooped. Ugh, I hate his job. Sometimes it feels like he is more in love with his job than our marrige....but I know I can't think like that.

Speaking of business's...Tomarrow is payday for Nate, which means that since he is the one supporting my business right now, tomorrow is order day. Unfortinatly things are not going to plan with last weeks order and nothing has come in the mail yet. I know I need to be patient...but it's hard when I've got this plan to start helping bring in money doing something that I actually have a love for (which for a person like me, means I'll actually stick to it) and it is taking longer than expected to do so. My plan is to start making enough to first support my business, then make more to help as a second income.

I was just talking to my sons father on IM and he said that he heard that since Nate's rents won't be here in the home to 'supervise' if we were granted over night visits in July, we WON'T be granted overnights....hopefully with any luck they will just look at the fact that we've done everything they've asked...It's really confusing how the judge asked us to get a place of our own, so we buy a house....and now they may not consider granting us over nights...maybe I'm just worrying too much. However the good news is that he also heard that Tucker will stay with my mother this court date (July 23rd) until a domestic judge makes a decision...I'm guessing a decision of who gets to take him home....and I'm praying that the domestic judge with be a different one than we are dealing with... I know that Donavan is at least $600 behind on child support....he never pays the full amount a month so yeah. Plus he misses visits here and there. That and he's also got a 9 month old son who he don't even see very often, but is still supposedly dating his mother...so I don't know. I'm just hopeing that this little stuff will end up playing against him...

ugh, I don't know. I'm just seriously having a hard time consentrating on anything else... Expecially the pregnancy. They say that you shouldn't be too stessed during your pregnancy, but how do I manage this one?

Well that's all for now...I'll post again when my mind is wandering too much again.

So I just found out some horrible news...I told you about when I moved in with my best friend to find a job and my mother took Tucker and all this drama started....well I guess when I moved back in with Nathan and started fixing everything, she had called my best friend and asked her to testify against me...

I'll admit, when I was living with her, I did some pretty dumb stuff. I went out partying and drinking...mainly cuz I was hurt that my mother would do this sorta thing to me...and that the love of my life had walked out....But also becuase I was just young and dumb and needed to be numb...

Well my best friend just told me that my mother had done this....she is trying every loophole to screw me over and keep my son...It's so sad... I feel even more abused by her than I did last week...she's taking everything she can and tryin to use it against me.

I hate the fact that I've never had a mother. I mean, I have...but she wasn't right in the head....we are going on 7 years now that she's continuously screwed me...if you don't count not letting me see my father while I was growing up.

Ugh, I just want to lay down in bed and cry right now...