Opinionated, are we?

...okay, so maybe everything's not really that fantastic, but deffinatly looking up.

Nate had an interview with the guy from Haun Hydraulic and apparently he got the job to be a welder...The only thing is the job may occasionally call to travel...but it pays better than what he was making at his old job... $14/hr... So we can't beat that. Now I'm just waiting to find out what kind of benefits, if any, he/we will get.

I have sorta been looking for a new job in retail merchandising again and was contacted by 2 companies. Alliance Marketing Group & Retail Integrity. With both companies I will be an independent contractor and be able to pick & choose what jobs I do. They are also both part-time, but with very flexible hours/days to complete the job. Thankfully that means I will have a decent window to find a babysitter...so I can't really beat that. Plus it will give me extra bill & spending money for when/if Nathan goes out of town. I just need to download all the paperwork they emailed me and complete it and fax it back to each company...

The boys are doing pretty good today. Right now they are both at Nathan's parents. They just love going over there so much. Hyde was kinda fussy and Tucker only had to go to his room once for only 5 mins this afternoon... So it was really a good day for them too. Hyde keeps trying harder and harder to sit up by himself and crawl. He is finally putting his knees under him more now.

Hello everyone. This week has been such a great one, most of the time. We were able to go pick up Tucker on Sunday morning...we got up there at 7am (meaning we left home at 3:30am) and of course, ma had to have a fit and try to tell me that 7 was too early to pick up my son....I basically told her to get over it and then I think she realized what time we had to get up in order to be there at that time. But I mean, seriously....why would we want to wait till 11am to leave, get there around 2:30 in the afternoon, pick him up....grab a bite to eat for a late lunch, and get back home around 5pm(ish)....that's nearly a whole day in the car when we at least do it to where we have the afternoon to spend with him....ugh. She stresses me out. Anyway, we have Tuck until Friday...and have to have him back between 7pm and 9pm...Then his 'father' gets him from next Sunday -Friday...then us again :) I know it will turn into a great cycle.

I have been having a hard time in this 6th month of pregnancy. I am just plain exhuasted all the time...in the evenings (always when I am wanting to make us our diner for the night) I get really light headed, naucious, and weak....to the point I have to lay down. It sux. The other night I tried to make Nate's favorite diner....chicken, homeade mashed taters, cheesy green beans, biscits and gravy w/ stuffing....(i know, i know....that's a lot for only 3 people...but I like to cook) and I ended up having to lay down and nearly passed out while nathan had to finish....(he had no idea what he was doing, lol) But I have a dr. apt on Monday so I will talk to him about it...and also see if I can get a refill on my nausia perscription!!! lol. 10 pills lasted me 6 months...so I think 1 more perscription will do me just fine.

Speaking of perscriptions, I've been back on my anti-depressants :S....when I first became pregnant is when I had started going to therapy. Well my therapist recommended that I see the medications department and make an appointment with the nurse there. She perscribed me an anti-depressant (that later my dr. changed....said the one he was changing me too was better and less harmfull to the baby) and the I stopped taking it for a while...well I began to notice I was getting really depressed and I was cryin everyday for a week straight....so I decided to begin taking it again...I also have to ask for a refill on that Monday when I see my doc. I am afraid though cuz after I had Tuck, Nate was afraid that I was in the beginning stages of post partum depression (we had a friend who was a nurse at the local hosp.).....we finally just blamed it on the fact that the guy I was dating at the time was just a douch bag and he was the reason for my 'un-happyness'....ugh, idk...I just hope I don't fall into any kind of strange or bad cycle after I have the baby....

And speaking of the baby and pregnancy....
I am thinking about going ahead and gettin a sonogram done to find out the sex :D I know I wanted it to be a surprise and all, but I can't wait no longer lol. I need to know! I am beginning to hope that we are having a girl. Everyone says that we will. My ma made the comment that I am carrying the baby high and so I will have a girl. Nates Gpa John says that since they had all girls, and all the girls had all boys, then this generation will have all girls....lol. he's silly. But I kinda hope we do :)

Halloween is coming up fast....and I'm thinking of painting my belly like a pumkin and that will be my 'costume' lol. I thought it would be a cute idea...and I want to make blue and green popcorn balls with m&m's in them...but nate says that all the kids expect to get candy from this house (being that it used to be his parents home) and that 'he didn't wanna be those people on the block'...lol.

My Avon is doing pretty good. I am up to 11 customers now! Of course they don't all order off of every campaign...but its neat thinking I have 11 customers that I get to see occasionally. I'm really proud of myself. I also have 2 ladies that are interested in becomming an Avon Helper for me to basically get me a whole new client base.... so that is really fantastic! I was telling you all about how I wanted to achive the Presidents Recognition in my first year with Avon...well I have to achieve $10,100 to do that...I am up to $1,574 :) so I think I'm doing pretty good with that too.

So how is everyone? Things are looking up here.

Tonight I wasn't expecting anything to happen....ended up with 1 lady coming to my house to pay for her order and pick it up (her kid's daycare is across the street)....then had another lady from down the block come over and asked if she could get books to take to work, then had 2 orders come in :D...

I am trying to get more and more organized with everything Avon...I've got Newsletters and fancy invoices I make on my computer...not to mention coupons and whatnot...I'm even thinking of making gift certificates for christmas!

Tomorrow I plan to try and get out and knock on a few doors. I have only gotten 3 orders for this campaign and it goes in on Monday...It is mainly my own fault. I have been so exhausted with the pregnancy that I just havn't had any motivation...

Speaking of the pregnancy, I am officially 6 months preggerz. I weight about 145 which is 20 pounds I have gained...My average weight is 120-125....and for a lil 5'5 girl, I can deffinatly feel it! We have decided to let the sex be a surprise and so we are not going to get another sonogram (unless asked by the doctor of course)...Statistics say that the baby should be about 14 inches from head to heel....Crazy!!!! Nate made the comment today that "it's gunna be weird when you don't have a belly anymore"....That kinda made me giggle.

His bosses are also making comments to him & I. They have always seen this lil petite girl walk around up there at the plant, now my baby bump is really noticable and they are all shocked...but excited. Nate has been working there for nearly 5 years now and so they have known me since we pretty much started dating 2 years ago...So we are all kinda like family. Plus his big boss's younger son is going to have his baby in September I believe...So that's kinda neat.

Tucker is doing well. I havn't talked to my mother since we dropped him off last Tuesday, but that is no surprise. We go and pick him up Sunday morning. We will prolly leave real early again so we can get back by noon or so, but we will have him for a week!!!! Well Sunday to Friday night...but close enough :) I can't wait. I miss him! He helps me so well with my Avon haha.

Well that is all for now. As you can tell I am trying to keep you updated nearly every day again :D

Hey!!! How has everyone been? I am so sorry I havn't posted or kept anyone up to date lately. Life has been strange. I have been busy and when I'm not busy I am really tired!!!! All the time!!!

Well everything with Tucker is going fantastic. Other than my mom that is...she is causing all kinds of drama....and stupid stuff too, like over the clothes we have bought him while he's been stuck up there...she won't give them back...and she has a dresser taller and wider than me up there FULL of his clothes...but claims she just has no time to go through them....makes me wonder cuz if she duz his laundry, she folds it and puts it away, why not fold it and seperate it??? I mean she is going to have to eventually!

Avon is kind of in a slump right now. I have gotten 3 laundry mats around town to let me place brochures inside the business. I am going today to check on them and see if I need to place a few more. I've only got 1 order for this campaign, which makes me really sad. But it's from family and I know she is doing what she can to help. Hopefully tonight will be a little better. I plan to also go knock on a few doors today. I hate doing that, but I really need to work a little harder on this. Everyone says I have been pushin it pretty far, but I need to. I mean, I don't have any cash to pay for my schooling and as of today, my payment is late...ugh.

I found a lady who is blogging about her Avon experience for 1 year and it has truly inspired me...so that is where my motivation comes from today....

Well everyone. I'm off to work :) be sure to check out my Avon store. We have some good specials going on!!!

www.youravon.com/amberwilkerson

Hey you all...How are things? Well we are doing alright here I suppose. We had to ask the in-laws for a little bit of 'financial' help, and as usual...they understand the situation, said we have too much on our plates, and handed us a check. I hate when we have to ask them for help, but they know that we try our asses off to do everything on our own and they are always happy to help us...maybe it's cuz we only ask for help once every few months and even then, it's not much...It's nice having 'family' that cares...I didn't come from a family like that so to be brought into one is a simple miracle for me.

But anway, it's nearly midnight and I can't sleep. My Avon is finally getting on track, however I could deffinatly use more customers...and more orders on my eRep site. I've only had two people order from there...But I know I need to just be patient...Maybe one of these days I will get business cards made up and be able to put them on bulliten boards whenever we travel and get more customers that way...who knows...

Only 2 days left till we go get my little man. I can't wait. We plan to leave here around 4 or 5am and get there around 7 or 8....then leave and have breakfast on the way home and hopefully get back here around noon...Nates dad said that we could drop Tuck off with him for a few hours if we needed to get more sleep...which I think sounds like a pretty good idea, rather than 6 hours of driving and being purely exhausted anyway.

I am finally, slowly, gettin into the swing of doing school work again. I got an assignment turned in yesterday in my Pre-Alg class and 3 lessons and 1 assingment turned in in my Intro to Computers and Applications class. I am still getting good grades, however I have to take my English class again. I wasn't able to complete it in time of the due date...so I am really dissapointed in myself with that...but I need to learn that I can't be 100% successful at everything I do...That just adds stress on an already stressful situation...

well I think that is going to be it for now. I hope everything is going well for you all and that life has blessed you with as great of gifts as I have been lucky enough to recieve in the past few weeks :)

Hey everyone. How have you all been? I'm sure you have been wondering why I havn't posted in forever!!! haha, well I've been pretty buzy and just avoiding posting a new blog since there is sooo much to say!

First I want to thank all of you who prayed for us when we went to court last week...It must have worked because, guess what??? We were granted 2 nights a week, un-supervised visits, in our home!!!! So we spent Thursday, Friday, and Saturday with Tuck here at home...but had to have him back to my mothers Saturday night...Donavan got the same (Tucker's biological father) which makes me happy (specially since we are gettin along again and working on our friendship)...We get him next August 2nd through the 4th....then if everything goes right & we please SRS....we will move to 5 day visits... and we would be able to have him again on August 16th through the 21st....and then twice more before we have to go to court again.

They would like Donavan and I to go to domestic court and get our 'visitation agreement' between the 2 of us on paper and in front of a judge...so before the case can be dismissed September 24th, we have to get that completed....Donavan and I have decided to split the costs of it...

Avon is going alright. I am going to try a few new things such as putting lead boxes around town so if anyone wants info about Avon or would like to sign up then they can write down their info and I can call them....The only thing I am worried about is that I have $100 order to pay for by Monday, other wise I can't put in my next order for my customers, which is a very good one...

We are starting to get the bills rolling in...We have to send our 1st mortgage payment Friday....it's crazy to think it's already been almost a month now that we have 'owned' our home...

My mother is seriously pissed off at this whole situation...Usually when we go to court she has a letter typed up that she 'passes' out to the attorneys and the judge and a few other 'important' people that sit in there, then keeps one for herself to read aloud to the court. It's usually filled with a bunch of immature crap and a way to get her way in court pretty much...well she's is upset cuz this time they didn't even have a hearing...Basically all we did was Donavan, his attorney, myself and my attorney and our srs case worker all went into a little room, discussed the agreement Donavan and I had set up....and that was basically it. We have decided that since we are splitting our time 100% with Tucker that we will have no child support, so that will be cancelled soon and we no longer have to pay mom anymore (sept maybe $100 for August cuz she cried about it) So she is also pissed that she won't be getting child support every month to make the payment on her new mini van...that she really don't need... But yea...I had to giggle. She didn't get to stand up in front of the judge and fill everyone's head with a bunch of junk and be able to get her way in screwing all of us over.... it was nice!!! And amazing how this time, with her not being able to say anything, things went totally different than normal! It was great!

But Nathan is in bed and I really need to do the same...so I will be back some time soon to check comments and write some more about what is going on.

I hope everything is going just as well for everyone else :D

So, I finally got internet...even though it's a day late. Turns out there are 2 phone lines that run to our house, and the company turned on the wrong one, so the internet guy had to fix it...But yeah...It's all gravy now...I had to go through about 4 or 5 people on the phone and a service technition...But we are up and running...

We also got our Direct TV today...That's nice....it's still lonely, but at least I don't have to surf the radio for a little bit of noise around here.

It's a relief having these things up and running now, but it just led to more crap to do...I've got 3 courses I need to complete online for school by Thursday morning...I'm guess at 12am...Luckily there is 1 that I only have 1 assignment left in, but it's a very difficult assignment, then I have my final exam....I have 11 assingments left in my pre-algebra class, then my final exam...and I have 15 assingments left in english, then my final exam. Ugh, I'ma be dead by Thursday...

We go to court next Thursday (the 23rd)....I'm so nervous cuz I know we won't get to bring him home. But I am at least hoping that we will get granted overnights (to where we can bring Tucker home over the weekend)....

Last Saturday was Tucks 2nd birthday....of course since Sunday is our visit dates...we had to miss it. Saturday was deffinatly hard for me. I made him a cake and everything...Nathan walked in from getting off work and immediatly had to come to my side because I was trying to mix the cake batter while holding myself up bawling...It was hard. Maybe next year he will be home for his birthday....But we took him to the park and had cake with him on Sunday. I've got pictures...but need to upload haha.

Avon is going pretty well. I've got 3 people signed up under me and 6 customers who have put in orders...So I'm pretty impressed with myself. I have 2 more girls who want to sign up hopefully next weekend...That will put me at 5 people under me and make me a Unit Leader :D I'm really proud of myself.

I got a pair of really cute sun glasses from Avon last week and Nathan was being goofy on the way up to see Tuck, he wore my glasses for like 5 minutes while driving...I have a photo of that too...I will deffinatly be loading that onto my blog soon...

Hey everyone. I am sooo sorry I havn't posted in like, a century!

Just wanted to let you know that I've gotten set up with Avon and am starting to sell. I am working towards so many goals in the company and need as many sales and recruits as possible. So if you would like to look through a brochure and order, you can go online to my site http://www.youravon.com/amberwilkerson and click on the tab near the top that says 'Shop Avon'...or if you know anyone that would like to sign up...PLEASE send them my way. It only costs $20 to sign up online and you will recieve a starter kit in the mail within that same week! And unlike Mary Kay, you don't have to have an inventory (however I've already found that it helps haha)

Tucker is doing great, he is getting so big and was saying 'horsey' on Sunday. It was cute because it sounded like he was saying 'oh shit' lol. But we figured it out and got him a little closer to pronouncing it correctly. We took him to the dinosour museum there in Hays and he was kind of 50/50 with it. He didn't like the big skeletons or the life size moving dinosours, but he did enjoy all the other little stuff and the fake animals. It was cute. He wouldn't let go of Nate for anything!

I have FINALLY recieved my items to begin making one of my craft projects...however I havn't started it yet. lol. It should really only take 1 day to complete..but I have no pretty bags to use for shipping so I'm not in to big of a hurry.

On Monday, July 6th we have a meeting to sign the papers on the house, and it's ours. I believe our in-laws will be moving out that day also...so it's going to be fantastic!!! lol. I'm excited and can't wait. We've already got the bill sswitched over and everything...so yea! yay!!!!!

I also heard back from the Avon Rep who is supposed to help me get started selling. On Monday I am to meet with her and get all set up...Hopefully I can start selling right away. I am going to get all set up online and everything so hopefully I can have the luxury of having a ton of customers...And maybe even get the chance to sign a few up under me :D

Like I just mentioned a little bit ago, we are going up to visit Tuck tomorrow. It is a 3 hour drive 1 way...so we have lots of driving to do. Luckily my car gets awesome gas mileage and we only have to put a tank and a half in it to get there and back....so like, $35 right now. I usually don't get many pictures when we go up...But I will definitely try to this weekend so I can post one for all you who are wondering about my little boy... as for now, here is a picture of 'my little family' (it's an old picture, so Callie isn't in it)

Well I will post again tomorrow night, or most likely Monday & let you know how everything goes...Thank you all for your support through this last week! I love you all and think of you constantly!

Thank you MzzLily & DJan. I appreciate your comments. We have however taken parenting classes and have given the class graduation certificates to srs and the judge for copies...We have done everything they asked...

• Random UAs
• me go back to school
• baby proof the house
• have someone inspect the house
• me go to therapy ever 2 weeks
• us find a place of our own (we are buying Nate's rents house)
• send weekly paystubs for proof of income and that we can support our family
• have a list of everything we have for Tucker
• have a room set up for Tucker
• be to every visit, every other weekend
• be to every court date
• give monthly budgets
• save and send every reciept we spend a dime on
• Pay $225/month child support.....and the list goes on.

We have jumped through every hoop and have gotten basically no where. And yes, we have an attorny...who is basically worthless.

I spoke with my mother today, I kindly let her know that I didn't trust her & I knew some of the things she was up to in tryin to skrew us out of having Tucker. She kept trying to deny it as usual and like her normal self, twist my words and cause an argument....however, she didn't succeed. I just kept telling her that I didn't want to talk about it and soon she just stoped talking to me all together.

Nate and I have decided that we will no longer go up on Saturday nights and stay the night at her house to have more time with Tucker since we can't have our 'unsupervised visit' till Sundays anyway. We will leave Sunday mornings, drive the 3 hours to get him, take him out to eat, shop & play, and take him back to moms and head home. That way we have minimal time around her and she has less that she can twist or use against us.

As for myself. Today, I have de-stressed a lot...I could have a lot more, but I didn't have too much to do. I could have worked on the quilt, but I am afraid I will run out of fabric so I will wait until Friday when we buy more, and continue to work on it this weekend or next week. My soap supplies should be here within the next few days, so that is killing me on waiting for. haha. I will immediatly start making them so I can set them up online and start selling...And of course, you will be the first to know! I looked around today and have found another idea for an item. I will try my hand in Pincushion Jars. I will begin ordering the stuff for that on Friday also...

Besides all that, I will get off here for now. I will leave a post tomarrow...Thank you all again and I hope you are having a better time in life right now than I am...

So I just found out some horrible news...I told you about when I moved in with my best friend to find a job and my mother took Tucker and all this drama started....well I guess when I moved back in with Nathan and started fixing everything, she had called my best friend and asked her to testify against me...

I'll admit, when I was living with her, I did some pretty dumb stuff. I went out partying and drinking...mainly cuz I was hurt that my mother would do this sorta thing to me...and that the love of my life had walked out....But also becuase I was just young and dumb and needed to be numb...

Well my best friend just told me that my mother had done this....she is trying every loophole to screw me over and keep my son...It's so sad... I feel even more abused by her than I did last week...she's taking everything she can and tryin to use it against me.

I hate the fact that I've never had a mother. I mean, I have...but she wasn't right in the head....we are going on 7 years now that she's continuously screwed me...if you don't count not letting me see my father while I was growing up.

Ugh, I just want to lay down in bed and cry right now...